X's AND OH's

I ran across an ex-boyfriend on myspace the other day. Actually, an ex-fiance. At first I was shocked to see him there, then figured someone probably told him it'd be good for his image (he's in the music biz).

It was a funny thing. At first I felt this pang - not that I wanted him back or anything crazy like that! But, suddenly I thought it might be nice to talk with him again. We have been seperated by time and space for a few years now. I thought, "Hey! I bet we could be friends"

So, I go looking through his page and decide to read one of his blogs. As I read the entry I could actually hear his voice in my head. Man! did THAT ever bring back memories! The way he was dramatic like a girl! I'm serious, folks! He lived for drama - the more the better! And, the way he'd drop his voice to emphasize whatever dramatic event had suddenly befallen him!

Or, the way he'd kill himself to please his "great friends". Ya, the one's who never lifted a finger for HIM or or bothered to show up at his gigs. But, when it came down to doing right by "us" or chasing after them, guess who won?

All this came back in the span of twenty-two seconds! (Yes! I counted!).......suddenly, I really wasn't sure if adding him to my friends list was such a hot idea. That lead to - "Dear God! What were you even thinking???"

Of course, the big up-side to seeing the ex there was thinking of my new film. Isn't it funny how negative people from your past can be a huge motivater???? Whenever I get distracted or try to goof off, I can think back to that myspace page and that'll get my ass back to writing! It's not that I wish bad things for him. No, not at all. But, when I saw him last I was unknown screenwriter without a clue! I want the next time to be me on his television, walking up the red carpet at Cannes! Hell, I'd even settle for the Philadelphia Film Festival!