I was hesitant to write my first blog. I'm not sure why...guess I wasn't sure where to start. I love to write. I've been doing it since I was 13, but it's not so easy to do anymore. I have chronic pain in my upper extremities and my fingers swell so bad that it makes it difficult to type. Doctors have mentioned that it may be Reflex Sympathetic Distrophy (RSD) but they want to do more tests to rule everything else out. RSD is a chronic and extremely painful conditon that causes intense burning and aching pain with swelling, abnormal sweating and hypersensitivity to the area. In short...it really hurts. If it is RSD I'll be okay with it...I just want to know for sure what is causing me all this pain. I've often asked myself why is this my life? The answer is simple...why not. This has happened to me for a reason, now it is my job to find that reason and make use of it. This is my life now. This is my journey. Although I feel so much pain atleast I'm alive to feel...and for that I am thankful.