For years I was miserable with my life. I always felt OVERWHELMED by even simple daily activities. I was edgy and would snap at anyone for anything, I couldn't sleep, my heart would pound, and I would feel as though I was suffocating. I just thought I had a bad life, and that's the way it was. Then I started reading online about Anxiety Disorder. It's caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain and can literaly make your life a living hell! Still to this day my mother asks me..."what the hell is it that your so worried about...just stop worrying". Anxiety is a completely uncontrollable feeling of overwhelming stress, and the constant worry that something is going to go wrong. My husband would be a measly 5 minutes home late from work and my heart would POUND like a drum and I was unable to focus on anything else. I would sit at the window watching for his car to pull up. Sleeping was never an easy task either. I would just lie awake at night thinking non-stop about what I had to do the next day, and how broke we were and how late the bills were. It would get so out of control sometimes that I would send myself text message reminders to my e-mail all night long. I'd get up the next day to check my e-mail and there would be 30+ messages from myself with reminders. This is what I saw as "normal". I just thought I was a worry wart!
I started going to counseling, and got on some medications. The counseling didn't do much for my anxiety, but the medications have changed my life. I don't worry about much of anything anymore! I can sleep at night, and I can finally enjoy my life rather than just worry 24/7!
If you think you might have anxiety...please get help. Your life doesn't have to be like this! There is a better side of life, I assure you! Also, keep in mind always that it isn't your fault....and your not alone!