What Happened to Me?

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I have nothing but good intentions when it comes to keeping my few blogs alive, and then life happens and my writing stops. Argh! So frustrating. And when I say "life happens" I mean "my kids happen".

It seems like we have had non stop drama with crazy preschool teachers, bad vaccine reactions, colds colds colds, teething, you name it, and my household has been turned inside out, upside down and sideways in the past three months. Which also means that in the past three months yours truly has not slept more than a 2 hour stretch in a night. And when I look in the mirror I start having Botox and Restylane fantasies because in three months I have turned haggard and Rip Van Winkled. All I need to complete the look is a gray beard dragging on the floor.

So yes, this is something of a pity party for me. I have self-imposed a very early bed time for myself. The kids go down, I get some household stuff done and then I am out for the night....just to sneak in an extra hour here and there of sweet, sweet slumber. I have books upon books that I am dying to read, blog entries that I want to post, but because I need some REM I only end up writing once or twice a week now...and getting maybe 4 pages (if I'm lucky and the book is REALLY good) read before I pass out. I know this phase will pass soon. In 2 years my daughter will be in preschool and my son will be headed to 1st grade. Plenty of time to do as I please then....but still....the NOW ain't easy. Nope. Not at all.

I keep reading all these parenting books that love to tell moms that in order to be a good parent they need to take personal time and do the things they enjoy. Hmmm. Sounds good in theory, but..... Are these authors catering to the wealthy mom who has nannies at her disposal so that she can go off and do what makes her feel good?I do know of a woman who has 5 children, nannies and a room in her home delegated strictly for her own napping pleasure. Really. A "napping room". I'm not asking for all that, but maybe just an extra few hours to my day. Or my kids sleeping well again. They did for a while. I swear. I had two solid sleepers. Not sure what happened. *Sigh*

Striking a balance between health (aka sleeping properly and eating well) and getting to do things I enjoy that are totally, selfishly for me alone is eluding me completely. And I am not talking Caribbean cruises and spa vacations here. Not talking shopping trips to Paris. I just want to be able to sip a cup of tea and write a really good post. Or lay down with a good book and actually read it. Most of all I want to go to bed at night and sleeeeeeep uninterrupted and not get woken up before 6 am. Any other moms feeling me on this? Tell me I'm not alone!

ModelMom – April 7, 2008 – 7:09am

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You're not alone.

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Well, okay. Right now you are, because my kids have outgrown that. Praise Jesus, cause I was losing my frick'n mind! It does get easier, though. In the meantime, tell the kids that you're going to play hide and seek. Grab some dark chocolate to hide in your pocket. Then make them hide. When they hide, pull that candy out and savor it. After you've thoroughly enjoyed it, get up and find them (since kids are usually pretty bad at hiding anyway). Tell them how GOOD they are at hiding, and you'll play again tomorrow. ;) Sure, it's not enough for a relaxing bath, but at least it's dark chocolate and a minute of quiet.

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IntricateGirl – April 7, 2008 – 7:43am

Nope! You are not alone!

It sounds like your children are a bit younger than mine, but the work and worry that goes into caring for kids doesn't end, it just changes. I don't have any infants, but I've got kids (3 of the four) in braces and they fuss and whine about how bad they hurt, all four play softball, so it's now muddy cleat and uniform season. Even now things I would like to do never get done (book reading, knitting, sleeping, relaxing, etc.) I guess you just have to grab the good stuff (dark chocolate is a good idea from IG) any way you can. I hate to tell you this, but it really isn't going to end, but you can have fun and make the best of it. Kids really do grow up fast!I wouldn't miss it for the world!

LaundryMom – April 7, 2008 – 8:20am

I was wondering where you were!

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Sorry to hear about your lack of everything! Yes, everyone goes through that - even me with only 1 at home! Whenever she goes through her weird sleeping thing, it kills me! But, it does pass.

I have a really good way to get my butt reading again - when we move, I won't have a tv for awhile! I'm actually looking forward to reading the 3 books I bought, but have barely cracked. I'm also going to pick up Stephen King's Cell. I wanted to read it when it came out and then forgot about it. I read that they're going to make the movie, so I want to read it first! Ahhhh, no tv is gonna be kinda cool for awhile. I know you'd go bat-shit if your kids didn't have tv time, so I won't suggest it for you. But, I love the hide & seek idea! Also, you could try something I will be doing in LA - kid swaping. Sounds weird, but we'll swap kids every now and then just to have some free time. Look on craigslist or put up your own ad.

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spookyyank – April 7, 2008 – 10:59am

Well hate to tell ya this ModelMom Buuuut...

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it doesn't get any easier as they get older...the problems just change in nature:( You will be able to shower and do things like shop for groceries...but then it's "fun time" with uuuum the "biker duuude" that wants to see your daughter/son...egads:) The only time a mother gets to rest is when she's an old bat...ahem, then it's this call "Hi mom? I was wondering if you could babysit for lulu/brad? Tonight?" Yeah and the circle of life goes merrily along:) Oh yeah HI how are you?

Sassys – April 11, 2008 – 7:35pm

You're right, Sassy. It

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You're right, Sassy. It doesn't stop even then. I'm all grown up (at least that's what they tell me), and just this week, I called my mom and asked her something that I was certain was going to make her scream into the phone. It didn't, but she told me that me and my sister "need to get a hobby so you quit coming up with weird stuff I never thought about to worry me." ROFLMAO!!

IntricateGirl – April 12, 2008 – 5:15am

My BP ladies......

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ok, it took me ages to get back to you and thank y'all for your comments, but i have to say a resounding "THANKS!!!!" to all of you for commiserating with me, giving me tidbits of advice and making me giggle and feel better. it feels so much better to know that i am not alone nor going completely batty over this motherhood deal. :-) and yep...i am sure you are right....the stress and worries are neverending even when your kids are adults. have mercy. long road ahead!!! i just hope i'll be getting more sleep then! (aaah! who am i kidding!)

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ModelMom – April 14, 2008 – 9:55am

I'm with you ModelMom

It's amazing what happens to the body after months and months of inadequate sleep. It's nuts!

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Brenna Fender – April 19, 2008 – 8:56pm

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