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What Does The Presence Of Dreams Mean?

Submitted by spookyyank on November 27, 2007 - 3:09pm.

I’ve written of my dreams in a joking fashion lately. But, I must admit that I’m kind of baffled as to why I’m now remembering them, when for so long I’d not remember a single one!

Recently I’ve had a couple nightmares ~ nothing too bad, only the feelings of helplessness that still linger a bit. In the one that I remember the most there were snakes and worms all entangled together, covering everything. From what I know of dream symbols, the snakes in this case refer to my own feelings of betrayal. And, in the dream I had no choice but to pick up one and fling it away from us. Clearly, that was my own subconscious reminding me that sometimes we must be strong enough to do the things we don’t exactly want to. Groovy. That I can deal with. But, the other dreams.....................

Ok, I’ve developed a REAL crush on someone who I’m going to make the effort to meet. He’s an actor and I’ve been crushing on him for real for a long minute now. I’m totally serious there! Serious enough that once we’re in LA I’d planned on asking my newly acquired agent to pull a “Brad & Jennifer” and try to hook us up! No kidding. I plan to put aside all shame that comes from the second party hook-up in order to have a date with this guy that I’ve been crushing on for so long!

Er, the problem???? Eli. Well, dream Eli anyway. This is where things get retarded. Each night as I’m falling asleep, I lay in bed and think positive thoughts about being hooked-up with this guy. Ya know, positive that he’ll be available (like I think he is!) AND interested in a dinner or whatever. I mean, he may be dating already or just not interested. That I could handle. What makes me nervous is ME ~ that I might blow it just by being too nervous. Um, I tend to do that with guys I really like! Oh, and yes, I know that by posting this it may actually harm my chances of a date, but what the hell. This crap is really irritating me!

Ok, back to Eli. So, I fall asleep thinking good thoughts ~ on occasion those good thoughts turn into a REALLY nice dream.......at least for a minute. But, what happens each and every night????? I end up in the arms of dream Eli who completely pushes the real crush out of the picture! I mean seriously. One minute I’m in the throws of passion with him, then I look up and it’s actually Eli! Where’d he go???? According to dream Eli, he’s been kicked to the curb! Uh, what?????

So, the psych major who lives in my head tells me I’m just afraid of whatever ~ being let down or being hurt or not actually being compatible with the guy ~ whatever. But, I tell ya, I’m not scared! I’m so into this idea of meeting this guy and where it might lead that I’m not even a little afraid to have would-be agent call his agent about it! I’m SO ok with it that I’m not worried about being given the “sorry, but he’s not interested” speech! He just might not be and that’s ok! It’s all about that first step and taking chances, right??? I’d be disappointed, but it would surely not be the end of the world! It would just mean that we’d not have a date. Big deal.

So, why won’t my brain shake Eli????? Sure, he’s totally hot and incredibly talented and creative, but honestly ~ er, that’d just never happen! He’s taken for one ~ he’s also the polar opposite of what I’m looking for! For true, I’d give my eye-teeth to work with Eli Roth! But, date him? Don’t think either of us would ever want to go there! And, I can tell you with complete certainty that I’m not his type!

So, what gives???? If I’m so jazzed about even the possibility of meeting my real crush, then why am I suddenly only about Eli???? I mean, not to enter TMI territory, but these have been some kind of intense dreams! Unlike any that I’ve had for a LONG TIME. When I wake in the morning they feel so real that I’m shocked he’s not actually asleep beside me! So, what the hell is wrong with me?????

What. Is. Wrong. With. ME?

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You've just gotten obsessed, Spooky,...

Submitted by Catfish on November 30, 2007 - 1:20pm.

and, probably, it's because you don't have someone else already in your life that you're close to. I mean, way back in the day I used to lust (yeah, I'll admit it) for first Kathy Ireland, then Daisy Fuentes. I thought I'd do anything to meet either of them. Then I got into a relationship, and those thoughts were gone. Course, now I'm married, and I find myself wanting Mariah Carey to want me, but I figure that's different because I don't want to chase after her, and she has to sing a couple of songs to me first. :-)

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ya, I know, catfish

Submitted by spookyyank on November 30, 2007 - 2:04pm.

Ok, I kind of figured you’d have a practical view of this (which I counted on, of course!) But, as you know I decided that it would be wise to make sure - as much as I could! - that the actor in question is actually sinlge like I think he is. So, I did a quick internet search and came up with nada about that. But, just out of curiosity I looked over his list of film & TV credits.

Now, allow me to rewind about 5 years. I was living in Philadelphia and my mother - the queen of all things evil and mean - came out to visit for a week. She had lots of places she wanted to go see, but one I wasn’t prepared for was this Chinese restuarant downtown. It was actually pretty damn close to my house, so I had no problem with taking her to it. Well, it seems that her newest favorite TV show was this show called ‘Philly’. I’d never even heard of it as I’d been working something like 60 hour weeks. But, on the show the characters would all meet up and hang out after work at this place. So, we stood outside while she took pictures. It was getting cold so I just wanted her to hurry the hell up so we could go inside! I should also explain that about two months before I had had a VERY bad break up with this guy I’d been engaged to. So, after she comes back out - you know, checking to see if it was the same on the inside as on the show - she had this “great idea!”. She looked at me and announced “Sissy! I have the perfect guy for you!”. Now, everyone knows the terror that comes from their mother wanting to fix them up! And, for me it was made worse by the fact that this woman only wants for my destruction. But, what rounded out the badness was her telling me this perfect-for-me guy was on the show! Oh dear! I wanted NO part of this conversation, but told her if we must have it then I at least wanted to go somewhere where I could get drunk while we did! She said “No, no, no! I mean it! This guy is really good looking and you’d love him”. She went on to say that if she was 20 years younger SHE’D go for him! Ya, that’s the stuff of nightmares, huh? Well, I refused and am pretty sure that I made the choice to not ever watch that show because of it! And, to date never have and the whole thing was put out of my mind the minute the woman left town. Hell, she didn’t even know the man’s name, just his character’s name : Terry Loomis.

So, back here in the present, I’m looking through his list of credits and see this show “Philly”. I’m thinking to myself “Why does that sound familiar? Hhhhhmmmm.........oh right! That’s the show my mom - OH MY GOD!”. His character’s name? Yep, you guessed it! Terry Loomis! The guy my mom wanted to fix me up with is THE SAME GUY I’M TRYING TO DATE NOW! Making this horrifying realization worse is the clear memory of my mother saying he was someone she would like to nail! *shiver* *yuk*!!!!!!! Man, if I ever needed a shrink’s couch it’s now!
What do ya think about THAT????? It almost feels like I’ve somehow come full circle.........except, this is one of those circles in hell we’ve all heard about!

But, in all seriousness, the dreams actually stopped the day I wrote this post! For me, that's all it usually takes! LOL And, with the shiny new info you got me, I'm all about the new outlook and the new would-be boyfriend! Er, a REAL one!

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How Wild, Spooky,...

Submitted by Catfish on November 30, 2007 - 9:04pm.

almost makes you want to go back and apologize to your mother just this once, doesn't it? LOL

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It does!

Submitted by spookyyank on December 1, 2007 - 12:17pm.

I was so blown away by that at first that I kinda just sat stunned! Then ran the whole thing by my friend who'd seen my pale expression! It's just so wild that it's actually kinda cool! Now, my mom couldn't have fixed us up since she has no connections in the industry. But, she figured I could meet him since in her world anyone in the biz - no matter what they do - has total access to everyone! So, there is this very small part of me that wonders what would have happened if I'd taken her advice and had the biz folks I knew there hook us up. Somehow, I think it's better this way, though! LOL

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