I'm in a confused frame of mind right now. Everything done as planned. No changes out of the normal, except for a small trip (that's where I was missing) to the family Gods.

I've been eating the same as usual, no exertion to speak of.... nothing out of the ordinary. Yet, I'm suffering from heartburn - at least this is what I think it is. I've never EVER felt like this before, in my life. Its a choked kind of feeling, like I want to burp, and it burns really low in my throat. I feel constipated sometimes, my stomach is tender and hurts in a particular place or so. It also feels bloated. Nothing strong enough to be worrying about, but certainly different enough to be worried.

I think its acidity. No clue. I never get like this.

Could it be that I'm pregnant? I read on some sites that implantation causes some discomfort, but the description doesn't really match. Neither does the timing. Apparently, discomfort from implantation would be just before the expected date of the periods. This started Waaaay before, At least 10 days before. No bleeding either. Just - wierd.

My periods should be expected not before the 18th at the very least, if they happen. This uneasiness has started from the 8th. Strange. I even sometimes feel like I'm due for my monthly, but then the feeling goes. There is some lower back pain too. Feeling dead exhausted and giddy at times.

What is happening? Am I falling ill, or am I pregnant, or what? Waiting until the 18th is like torture. If I'm falling ill, this is nothing short of a miracle that my first mentionable physical discomfort (other than injury) in 5 years co-incides with the one month I'm trying to conceive. Not kidding. I don't even get headaches and stuff. Could it be stress? Or am I imagining too much.......?

The diet is absolutely the usual. I don't eat spicy food usually and I also haven't eaten anything spicy recently. Fruit is jappening, as is plenty of water. I easily drink over 5 litres of water a day. This is really bizarre. If this is what pregnancy is like...... How am I going to get through this thing?

But then, its also too early for any pregnancy discomfort. Apparently it shouldn't start until I'm 6 weeks pregnant and the hormones have changed enough to throw my body for a toss.

Arrrrrgh!

The only explanation is that I might have picked up some bizarre bug from the 3 day travel for the Gods. So much for Gods helping people.

More on the God angle in a seperate post.