crazy

Hello again, its been a while!!! I hope and pray all is well with my friends here at Bloggerparty. I wish I could say that only great and wonderful things have been going on for me, and that I won the lottery!! But that is so not true! Things for me are horrible. I went back to read my last bloggs and I can't even say I am there still. Can I first say that it is really good to be able to come back here to you guys, and vent. Even be a big pile of self pity and have the worst luck ever, and you guys are still here. I can only say secondaly, that had I not had MBFF and she knows who she is, I would not even be sitting here right now. She has saved me once again, and kept me from doing the unthinkable and for that I will, again, be forever grateful.

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This post was inspired by modelmoms latest entry . The subject here is mental illness vs. crazy.

Last I heard, post traumatic stress syndrome was ranked as a mental illness. Probably for the sake of insurance, but who really cares? What that means to me is that I'm now classified as mentally ill. I prefer crazy.

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This world is crazy right now, did it make you crazy? I dont believe anyone was born nuts, I believe we are who we are because of what happened to us. I believe we all can be somewhat sane after any circumstance, you just have to be aware of what happened to you that made you who you are and think about it, live in this moment and not in the past, we are the heir of our own actions, lets just make sure they are not crazy ones.

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don't think i am destined for greatness.

I don't think that anything i do over the course of my life is ever going to change the world in a significant way. I doubt i will cure diseases, or bring about world piece. I wont invent anything. And any hope of ever being internationally famous or even well known has recently dwindled down to a far-fetched dream.

When i die it is not going to make the national media.

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i was out with a friend today and i was walking down a rather busy steeet when i passed by a man who i recgonized.

"that guy talks to his money" i told my friend in a very loud wisper

he turned to me looking confsed.

"what?!?"

yeah.

that guys talks to his money.i was waiting for the bus a while back and he walked up the the stop, which for some reason has no bench anymore but back then it did. and i was sitting on it.

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I need a vacation! I just want to run away and hide for a while. Somewhere where there are no phones, no stress and absolutely no drama!

My house use to be a quiet place where I could relax. It is anything but that now. Last year we let my now 18 year old sister-in-law move in. No house is quiet when a teenager lives in it! I'm just shy of 26 and raising a teenager. I no longer what kids!

A few days ago a family member was beaten by her boyfriend and she is now living with us. I'm now a mother and a counselor. I love being able to help our family out but it has been nothing but drama, drama, drama! I hope things will become easier with time...hopefully before I go crazy.

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