Statement of Doubt

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I've gone to the same church for eleven years, and I've never become a member. At first (my family started attending when I was in high school), my lack of membership did not prevent me from being involved in anything. But now that I'm more or less grown, I feel like I'm not really involved in the church the way I want to be.

One of the reasons I balk is this: I know my beliefs differ from theirs on a few key issues.

For instance, I can't find any particularly convincing evidence that would lead me to believe that people MUST convert to Christianity, pray the sinner's prayer, During Their Earthly Lifetimes in order to get into heaven.

I was afraid they would make me sign a bunch of things that would make me uncomfortable.

Well there are a few.

They believe in the personal, premillenial return of our Lord Jesus Christ.
"Premillenial" is an awfully loaded word.

They talk about an "age of accountability" which I also think is unsupportable from Scripture.

And here I go yakking about how things are provable or not provable from Scripture, and I hesitate to sign something that says, "We believe in the Scriptures of the Old and New Testaments as inspired of God and inerrant in the original writing, and that they are of supreme and final authority in faith and life."

1) I don't know that "Scripture" should be confined to the Old and New Testaments. 2)What does it mean to be 'inspired of God'? 3) If it's so inerrant, why does it contain what certainly appear to be inconsistencies, and why are there parts that Christians feel so comfortable simply ignoring. (say, the Old Testament law).
4) I cringe at the thought of "supreme and final authority" in faith OR life, let alone both. Particularly when the Bible contains ideas like: a woman must marry her rapist, a woman must be silent in church.

At any rate, I'm at a quandary.

And just to throw a wrench in the gears, on the very Sunday when I picked up the application form, I left after service and went to the Greek Orthodox church down the road.

Go figure.

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o ceallaigh's picture

Church is like baseball

Church (mosque, synagogue, etc.) is a social function. In our society, I think, it is one of the few forces that emphasizes community, when practically all other forces emphasize independence even if it is at the expense of community. Church uses the metaphor of Divine Sanction to enforce those behaviors that emphasize community. Because we are social animals, and we have survived on the basis of our ability to choose to execute community-supporting behaviors. Even when it looks, in the short term, as if the community is causing individuals to lose out. And trust me, no individual wants to lose out. It's hard work to keep the community in line in times of plenty when it looks like only the selfish are getting any.

In other words, church is like baseball. It is a social function. It requires consistent rules.

If you don't have any consistent rules, you have Calvinball, not baseball. And Calvinball is asocial, even antisocial. There is no "community."

If you have too many consistent rules, you limit the number of players severely, perhaps even down to one. Hard to play baseball if you have only shortstops. This too does not promote community,

If you have rules but are constantly arguing about them, then you have a game but you never get to play it. The umpires ejected both teams for fighting over the lineup cards.

Only the right number of rules, practiced with the right combination of consistency and flexibility, allows you to have your game and play it too. It is hard to find a church that has mastery of this combination, that has a game to play that you recognize as baseball and that you actually get to hear the umpire call out "Play Ball!"

Sounds like the church you've been attending has a lot of shortstops.

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