Never have I ever

Never have I ever felt so motivated and inspired... to sit inside and ignore everything that's going on in the world. Never have I ever felt like such a helpless case. Never have I ever felt so completely different from every person around me... let alone every person in this city.
Never have I ever felt so cut off from reality, and what people around me do. Never have I ever felt so alienated. Never have I ever felt so disconnected from the American way of life. Never have I ever felt the need to turn back the clock to a time when I felt inspired.
Never have I ever felt I am missing out on so much. Never have I ever felt so depressed, like the whole fucking world has its weight on my shoulder.