My Real Self

Some time I consider what my real self is. Is it the same what a supposed it to be or it is distorted in recent years? I have some dreams in my childhood. I want my self to be like that. But as I grown to an adult man, I saw my dreams shattered. I am becoming something, which I don’t want to become. My actions have not remained in control of me; rather they are becoming reactions to others behaviors.

In my child hood I dream my self as a confident person, who will have full command on himself. However in recent few years, I have only loosened my confident and self-esteem further. In childhood I was a more confident person and had big dreams in eyes. But in adulthood everything looked shattered. World is not as I supposed it to be like. It is different and cruel. It has no care for others values and self-esteem. It is only running to fulfill, its lust for more power. And it can go up to any extent to fulfill it.

It can kill the dream of thousands for its own enjoyment. Others are like usable things to it. Which, he can use anytime and through it after use. It has done this to me also. It has killed my creativity. It has put me in a prison. It is exploiting me for its gains. This is not enough for him; he is even trying to make my life miserable as he can. Only my fault is this, I have no backing or solid background. There is no one standing back of me and coming for my help.

World is taking the advantage of this thing. So it is trying to exploit me as much he can. This exploitation increases the frustration and anger in me. Due to them I am deviating from my true self to some one stranger. This is what the world like. A person who is docile to it and agrees to every thing he says. It may be wrong or right. World has created the army of these kind of people around him. But my nature doesn’t allow me to do this.

This the same story with hundred of other individuals. Who are like me are got exploited of having weaknesses. World is very good in searching and exploiting ones weaknesses. Here the main concern is that this world is run by only some of individuals. Whom, we can say the cream of society. They were born with silver spoon in their mouth and they treat everybody else as an inferior. Nature has given everybody the right of freedom. A bird can have it then why not me.

Why cannot I live my life in my way and become a person what I want to be. My fault is only; I have born in a lower family. One option for me is to agree with the world and do what he says. Second is to follow my heart and fight for my free life. Definitely I will do the later. I am confident about it. It is not only necessary for me. But it will show way to the hundred of others also. A mobilization is required to save the mankind from the clutches of World (Few selfish individuals).
I request to search their real self and help the mankind.

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