My Obsession with Moving

I got a bug up my ass about a week and a half ago that I should move and find a house. First it was going to be to Wisconsin. Then, for some unknown reason, the people I know out there... didn't seem too interested in my joining them out there. Not really... I wasn't intending on being up their butt, however the prices on houses and stuff was REALLY alluring to me. Anyway after a conversation with them, I realized... if I didn't know a sole that would be bad. I wouldn't like that "at all".

My friend suggested that I stick to the east coast so i could still see the people that I know here. Well, okay... that sounds reasonable. So I turned my obsession on PA and NY State. Right now, I'd done alot of work finding this great new job and then I was hellashusly sick (long story still not recovered from that) but anyway they let me go claiming that I asked too many questions. (fruckers) So... that totally sucked because I'd worked 6 months to find a great job and then it didn't pan out and I felt like I was back to square one. So, I'm on unemployment right now, and I thought! WOW I can go and buy a house some where! This is my golden opportunity to MOVE! I have the time to look, I can go during the day, I can find a NEW job doing something more suited for me (I personally HATED the area of law I was doing which was defense work for PI claims, not my thing really) and I can have this BIG FAT fresh start!

Well Okay then!

Right? Anyway... I called a realtor in PA Friday, they want to run a mortgage application etc., to see if I can "get" a mortgage being unemployed right now. THEN I realized ... well I have no damned clue where to go there either... and I then began to look in another area in south Jersey and realized that they actually "DO" have homes down there that I could afford. Huh... right? Go figure... well whattaya know about that?

This ENTIRE process is very comfusing. I'm still obsessive about it in it's entirety that's for sure, But the balls are rolling here in my brain as to what I'm going to do, to make this happen.

Yesterday I went to a dollar store down the street and pikced up like 8 large boxed from their deliveries that day, folded them down, they're piled up here I'll put them in my storage closet later. Lord knows you need boxes and newspapers when you move. So I'm stockpiling them now so I don't have to worry about having them later. They said I could have more every week. So I'm thinking... maybe a little over say... 20 of them would do nicely. I'd have to go count again in each room to be more specific. Course the question is do i want boxes for my clothes? or would I put those in garbage bags to make them squishier for packing? :) ...

We'll see... SO now, if I do have obsessive compulsive disorder LOL :) I'm severely obsessed with making a decision on where I want to live, what I can afford and how I'm going to do this.

But, I think I'm going to stretch out the time in which I do it maybe. I mean gettign the bug up my ass is fine, I love the motivation of it all... doing it half assed, certainly, on a big purchase like this ... isn't going to be a good idea.

:) ... You know? I never even though about owning a home. Gee maybe getting fired was terrific after all. It pissed me off enough to think to myself well! I have all these other opportunities and things I can do etc., I do still have residual feelings about getting let go though. I mean I was JUST RIGHT THERE on getting amazingly caught up on everything... it was a HUGE kick in my teeth, I gotta tell ya... I was massively confused by the entire thing.

s'okay :) well to be honest I didn't particularly love my environm,ent but was tolerating it because of the money and minding my own business about certain things while, annoying, I figured I could get through it over time. At minimum I'd have money saved in the bank by the time I was thoroughly disgusted by the place and the atmosphere but the money was excellent... I can do it again though, find a place that I'm making what I should and do a good job there doing "exactly" the area of law that I'm good at. I think this would be very wise. :)