Well, it's finally happend. All those glances in the mirror. That shirt that wasn't this tight last week. The never ending bulge that rims my jeans and shows through my t-shirt. I knew I was getting a little chunky ;-O, but pregnant! Wow! And go figure it comes from the guy who lives a few houses away, the guy that I dated when I was in high school, the guy that I lost my virginity to, and the guy that needs help getting off crack! But I guess that the truth comes to you in any format. I feel like I should ask him why he's so skinny. Why does he do drugs? Would that help? Make me feel a little better? Maybe, but the truth is that he has nothing to do with my fatness! I have done this damage to myself. And I've tried everything. Dieting, exercise, but my biggest problem of all is consistency. I'm a quitter. I can go for a while, but then as soon as I start to see even the slightest result, bam, straight back to the chips. Skip that workout, you lost 2 lbs last week. Before you know it, I've stopped everything, and I'm back to watching tv in my room, snacking before bed! Oh, make it stop! I don't want to look like this AGAIN this summer. I want to be able to feel comfortable in my shorts. I WANT TO WEAR A SWIMSUIT, NOT SHORTS AND A TANK TOP!!! And the saddest part is that we're not talking about 50lbs overweight. We are talking 15lbs overweight, and I can hear you now....ohhh poor thing! Get over it! And I should, but I carry 15lbs like it's 50 with my height. I'm only 4'11". That makes for one very stout and chunky chic! But pregnant?! It's worse that I expected. Maybe I'm up to 20lbs over by now, who knows, I threw away the scale a year ago. It's so sad. I preach to everyone and I can't even follow my own advice when it comes to my appearance. I'm very annoyed with myself and this is going to be the beginning of winning over the pounds. I am goin public! I am going to write a daily entry on what I ate, when I exercised, and any of those nasty pounds that I can sweat off of myself. Maybe I will hold myself a little more accountable. Maybe I'll write white lies about the 3 pieces of candy that I stole out of the easter basket in the other room. I don't know, but I guess we'll find out.
OK-here's today....
No breakfast-very bad, need to work on that one really bad.
Snacked on ham all afternoon, some chips, an apple, and a few pieces of candy out of the easter basket-there!
Dinner - Ham sandwich and a banana
On my second glass of wine
Exercise - did 2 loads of laundry - 3 story house, you do the math
Canvased three blocks for work this morning
Danced in the basement for 1/2 hr, doing the turbo jams moves.
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