My Confessional

Whenever I'm asked to describe myself I can never come up with anything good to say, or write. But for some reason I am feeling inspired to sit down tonight and become something of an open book. So here goes nothing...

Who is ModelMom? Well, I'm a Cuban-Hungarian mutt, born in Los Angeles but raised very non-LA. My childhood was typically dysfunctional although I came out of it with high morals and a pretty good value system. I went to college, graduated with a BA in English Lit with minors in Spanish and German. I got married, got divorced, started modeling, traveled the world. I lived in Taiwan, Japan, Hong Kong, Korea, Italy, Austria, with stops in many other places in between, then off to Miami, Los Angeles and Portland. Got into a bizarre courtship with a photographer, broke up, traveled some more, met my husband, got married again , had a baby boy, and started blogging.

I am a Gemini, a bibliophile and sometimes a hermit. I often wonder if I have become something of a misanthrope. I love my circle of friends with a Mafia like loyalty yet have a very hard time letting others into my inner circle, and this seems to become more so the older I get.

I despise talking on the phone for no real reason. I do, however, adore email and getting to read blog postings, etc. For some reason this is far less intimidating to me. I am impatient, opinionated, and intolerant of cheaters, liars, and other such miscreants. I speak five languages. I am a caffeine junkie. Despite my Cuban blood I can't salsa. I have split ends. Sometimes I check the front door to make sure it is locked a little too compulsively. (Am I OCD, or is that just part of growing up in LA?) I'd rather eat cheese than chocolate. I am disciplined and hard headed. I wish I could read people's auras.

I hate cooking yet love eating. I am a neat freak and border on the obsessive. I am fiercely independant and have a huge personal space bubble. I believe in raising my son with the best nutrition, education, and discipline possible. My son is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. I want to live in Tuscany. I love shopping but am also very frugal. I am thinking of going into real estate when my son is in school.

I am terrified of the supernatural yet strangely attracted to stories about it. I like the color green. I love animals and children. I believe in some conspiracy theories. I can admit to how hard it is to be a parent. I feel as though I may be coming down with the flu. I believe in feng shui. I am a culture freak. And I pray at the altar of Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart.....he was a god. I miss my friends every day. I admire my husband for rising out of so much adversity and being the man he is today. I admire my father for all that he has endured and still endures yet is able to maintain such a sweet composure.

I can be very sarcastic. I have a wacky sense of humor. I am not very graceful. I am shy but pretend not to be. I have to lie about my age all the time (for work). I prefer NY to LA. I hate sports. I take vitamins religiously even though I eat a little too much junk food. I wish I was debt-free, and pray for financial peace of mind. I am permanently bitten by the travel bug. I'm an emotional sap, and I want to help everyone all the time. I need a pedicure and a vacation.

I'm sure there are a lot more things that I can add to this, but I'm hungry so I am signing off. Book is closing.....