Please don't think that my words are in any way condemning of you, because they are not. I am saying this out of concern for lyou. I had a friend who was in this same predicament, did what you are thinking of doing, and has regretted it desperately ever since.

Psalm 139:13-16 says, "For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."

There is a commandment telling us we should not kill....and because it is convenient does not make it right to do so. Exodus 82:3-4, Psalm 82:3-4, Proverbs 24:11-12 are a few verses that talk about this.

Please, for your own piece of mind, don't do what is convenient. Do what you know is right. If you don't, you will always wonder who this little person would have been. I will pray for you.

I understand your feeling about abortion. I wanted to tell you my story, maybe it'll shed some light.

I found out I was pregnant in March of 2005. I was two weeks away from buying a business that I have dreamed of my entire life. I had spent four years in college taking classes so I could purchase this business. I had gotten a loan for almost $350,000 so I could buy this place.
When I discovered I was preganant it seemed like the worst possible thing that could ever happen to me. I was in deep depression. I decided that I had to give the baby up because my career was on the line.
After thinking about it for a while I decided that I was going to have an adoption. I was "adult enough" to have sex so I had to be "adult enough" to accept the consequences of my actions. It was so hard. I even lost my current job because I was pregnant. I had truly felt like I hit rock bottom.
As time passed I didn't really get excited like other mothers do when they are expecting. I just wanted it all to be over. I just knew it was the right thing. That little baby inside of me had feelings. It had a heart that beated.
On August 1, 2005 I went into labor and had a beautiful son. He was so small. He had tiny fingers and toes and little eyes that could barely open enough to see the world. As I held jim I knew that everything happens for a reason. I knew that maybe I wasn't ment to do what I thought I wanted to do.
My son is now 6 months old. I have completely changed my life. I used to not like children much but now I love them. He has made me realize that life is not about working at a job where you make top dallar, or driving an expensive car. Life is about love. Who knows, my son may be the next President someday, but if I would have aborted hime he never would have had the chance.
I have been blessed with the opportunity to go to school, I think he should be given the same. He did not chose to come into this world, I created him.
I urge you to really think about what you are doing. I know, believe me, how hard times are now. It DOES get better!
There are thousands of wonderful families on waiting lists to adopt a child. Some women pray every night for a child. You are lucky enough to have the blessing to be able to give one.
With my son being 6 months old I have time to go to school, work and take care of him. His grandparents adore him too. You will find the strength to raise a child if you chose to, and if not, please allow another lucky parent to do it.

You have thought about this a lot before you made your decision. I wish you a lot of support. I have been in your shoes.

Hugs,
Bobbie

I don't believe in having a child until you feel that you are ready to do so. If you aren't ready this child will only bring you depression and anxiety. Like you said, you had just finished school, you should take your time and consider when you would be ready to have a child. There is no greater comfort than bringing a child into the world when you know you can deal with being a mother with the father of the baby that loves you very much and being there with you to raise the child. My mother had an abortion when I was 11 years old because she contracted german measles, my family did not want the child to suffer.

Do what you have to do to survive, and make sure you can survive with your decision.

But that's just me~