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I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer over a year ago. since then I have had a major surgery and six rounds of intense chemotherapy. I am still in the process of getting my normal life back again. I have hair now, I am back at work, and my cancer is in remission. However, even though many things are the same as before the cancer, many things are also very different as a result of the cancer.

First of all, my body is different. My hair, fingernails, internal thermostat (I'm always hot now) and even my eyesight is different. The biggest changes are my energy levels and the onset of arthritis. My energy still isn't back and may never be what it once was. The constant pain in my feet, ankles, and elbows wears on me after a while. It is difficult to face the reality that life will never be what it once was.

But, facing reality is difficult. Ovarian cancer has the highest death rate of all the female cancers. My chances of living five years is only 50/50. My chance of recurrence is 80%. Each time I go for my check-ups the fear of recurrence haunts me. The aches and pains I feel remind me of the pain of cancer treatment.

Cancer has taught me to enjoy every moment of every day. I don't have control over the cancer, but I do have control over how I spend the rest of my life. I must overcome the fear so that it doesn't overpower the joy in life. I need to enjoy the time I have left, whether it is a few weeks or a few decades. I hope to truly, savor the moment every day.

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