It is tiring to be living...

with no purpose.

Conscripted to serve the country.

Thought it will end soon in Nov, I dont know what my plans are for futher studies. I am stuck without the financial means to go for further studies.

Boy, if only wars didnt exist, I would not be wasting 2 years of my life being a dog to the military without a source of income. Suffering meaninglessly.

Even when the time comes to get out of it, I am without a road I can walk. Education is costly, life is more costly.

Though I have tried my best not to dwell on this, it returns sooner or later, when the time comes, I hope I can work something out instead of being a drifter on the streets, my future ruined, my fate undecided.

Sigh, life sure is depressing at times.