-Never let others to view her body anymore, Shu promise to Buddha

Her heart mangle, to avoid become crazy, Shu seek for consolation from religion. At the beginning, she trust in Christian, she cries bitter tears every time heard preaching from pastor. But Shu felt scared, she thinks because of her behavior she will go to hell one day. Later she seeks help to relief suffering from website and hope to have a peaceful life. Afterward, she believed in Buddha when meet a Buddhist from the website. A Buddhist console her, the motif is kind if is for family. Finally, she decided to break away from suffer and promised to Buddha that she never let others to view her body anymore.

She tries her best to become a normal person, in her dairy she expresses the love in education career:� my dream is to become a teacher since I’m a kid. My motif about this dream is to received cards and drawings from my students…even though there is only $300 a month, have poor conditions of hostel and teaching, when saw the students pure in heart like an angel, all the grumble will disappear�. Year end of 2003, Shu participates in certificate of teaching exam from government and obtains the top grade, thence Shu become a certified teacher.

At this moment Shu’s first younger brother know the fact behind their school fees, he cry one’s heart out in the phone. After this, they rarely talk about this matter until one time in year 2005, her first younger brother sent an email regarding news of a university student infect by AIDS. Shu understand what her brother reminds about.

-Without salary she get into difficulty

In May year 2004, Shu as a certified teacher reallocated to another primary school as an English teacher. In her hostel, you can see there are pictures on the wall; one side is Buddha’s picture and another side full of pictures from students. Shu like to watch on those pictures because she though is cute and funny.

She collects a lot of letters and cards from students, she paste one of the “messages� on an A4 paper, this message related to a story between her and students. In September year 2005, she found that the $700 salary never issue anymore, the management department told Shu this is because she just belong to the readjustment group of teacher, so need to wait for readjustment. Her life gets into difficulty, how about younger brothers school fees? She feel stressful, thus, she think to be a monk. Sooner later this idea be know by her students, thereupon they wrote a “message� to Shu:� teacher, don’t be a monk, we love you….�� we like to attend your English class, your sweet smile, you talk to us gently...� Shu felt touching, she think that if become monk she can only relief herself but become a teacher she able to contribute to a group of kids.

Shu still didn’t obtain salary for the following few months, she borrowed money from school at the same time to persist teaching. When she back home one day, she found that her mother suffer from metrorrhagia, the blood have flowed for a month. but to save money her mother didn’t treat it. Without salary, her mother becomes weaker and weaker. Finally she lost control and crying when she attends a primary five’s class.

-A low bow to students

At afternoon of November 15, a teacher in charge of primary 6 accidentally told students that Shu have no salary for 2 months. The students decided to help Shu to pass through the difficulty. At evening, two girls came by bicycle and bring along a big pack of stuff to Shu’s hostel. Including 20 catty of rice, 2 oranges, a lime, and 2 bunches of vegetables and a pack of sour plum. The girls leave immediately after put down the stuff.

The next morning, her students in turn to sent stuffs to Shu’s hostel, included rice, vegetables, beans, sweet potatoes, eggs…the stuffs heap at the a corner of her hostel. Shu said to students with crying in class:� teacher’s house do farming too, you all not necessary to bring rice to me and I can’t finish the vegetables too, really not necessary to do all this to me�. Shu sent a low bow to student.

At afternoon, primary six’s students came again to Shu’s hostel, they bring a wad of one and two dollar (RMB) money, provide totally $42 to expression of their good will to Shu and ask her to keep it, but Shu refuse. She said:� are you all thinking to make me cry again, teacher really doesn’t need it and teacher felt sorry to you all.� Before term begins, Shu promise to students who get the score above 90 she will buy them some stationary. At the first and second unit of exam she fulfilled her promise but for the later exam Shu really have no money to buy anymore. “You all go to expense in rice and money for me, teacher really felt happy but painful. But teacher promise all of you, once I get my salary I will buy for you all.� Shu said and all her students cried. After that, Shu add $4 dollars more, spent $46 to buy a few set of English assignments and cassette for them.

*the above article is a true story. The further story will appear at my blog tomorrow.