I'm Done With Chemo Treatments

I'm done with chemo treatments. Yahoo! Last week Monday was my last treatment. My blood counts were very low, but my Dr. decided to go ahead with treatment anyway since it was my last one. I felt pretty crummy last week, but I just kept thinking that each day will get better. Yesterday I had to have my blood work checked. My platelets were in the danger zone, so I needed a transfusion. I never had one before, so I didn't know what to expect. But, it wasn't a big deal. It just took a while because they had to get the platelets from a different city and then I had to stay at the hospital for a while to watch for any allergic reaction. I came through with flying colors. Today I felt much perkier, probably because I have some platelets now. I go back on Friday for another recheck. Next week I need to have a CAT scan to check everything out. I will get the results on April 2.
Even though I am so relieved to be done with chemo, the end is also scary. I always feel that as long as I'm doing chemo, I'm fighting this cancer. Now, I just wait and see how long I can stay in remission. It can come back at any time in any place and the uncertainty of that is a bit unnerving. Again, it's a lesson in faith. Life is truly out of our control. We just need faith that God will get us through whatever life dishes out to us. Our lives are truly in His hands. I like to have control over things, but my life is no longer in my control. I can only control how I live the life I am given. For now, I just want to gain back my strength so that I can live life to the fullest, one day at a time.