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Some of you may already know that, in my formidable years, I was raised Mormon. I do not have the time nor the desire to get into every detail of this cult, this religion. That's not what this is about. No. This is about me finding some sort of peace.

The person I am today likes to smile, to laugh, to have a good time. Unfortunately, it is just a mask. This mask hides who I really am. I've given some of you a glimpse of who/what I really am, but it was never the full truth. I've learned how to not expose that which would frighten people or cause them to become worried.

Everyday I live a lie. I pretend to be happy-go-lucky with a touch of cynicism and sarcasm on the side. Unfortunately, the truth is that there is no happiness. There is only hate and loathing. It is all consuming. I hate fore the lies I was spoon fed. I loathe for the raping of my mind and my soul.

How do you fix that? How do you make it all better?

You can't.

I am not anti-religion. I am anti-bullshit and pro-common sense.

I'd like to share a song with you

Hey god, why are you doing this to me?
Am I not living up to what Im supposed to be?
Why am I seething with this animosity?
Hey god, I think you owe me a great big apology

Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

Hey god, I really dont know what you mean.
Seems like salvation comes only in our dreams.
I feel my hatred grow all the more extreme.
Hey god, can this world really be as sad as it seems

Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

Dont take it away from me.
I need someone to hold on to.
Dont take it away from me.
I need someone to hold on to

Hey god, theres nothing left for me to hide.
I lost my ignorance, security and pride.
Im all alone in a world you must despise.
Hey god, I believed that promises, your promises and lies

Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

You made me throw it all away.
My morals left to decay.
How many you betray.
Youve taken everything
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie
Terrible lie

My head is filled with disease.
My skin is begging you please.
Im on my hands and knees
I want so much to believe.

Dont take it away from me.
I need someone to hold on to.
Dont take it away from me.
I need someone to hold on to

I give you everything.
My sweet everything
Hey god, I really dont know who I am.
In this world of piss

I graduated from the Mormon seminary. What a joke that is. I'll make a deal with the Mormon church; you give me back my ignorance, my innocence, my naivety and I'll stop telling everyone the truth about what you really are.

Those of you who think I'm going to hell...I'll save a seat for you. Judge not lest ye be judged, you hypocritical motherfuckers.

Oh, and while you're at it, why don't you reread Matthew 25:40