Now that I've begun idea shopping, I found all sorts of mothers in all sorts of situations and information overload on ideas, and emotion overload on thoughts.

Poor Rosa here is speaking of her in-laws being not very supportive about her previous pregnancy, and is now wondering about how and when to tell them this time. And I'm here, knowing full well that parents in law definitely want a grandchild, as in right now. Jihill2 is a struggling writer with 4 children and a surprise pregnancy wondering what it means to her life in terms of change and challenge. Its my first, and I'm freaking out about that. Strange how these pressures get us.

My mother-in-law has just finished giving me a dose of the standard Indian grown up philosophy about how I must plan a child soon. We're already doing that, but we're not planning on telling her, until I'm actually pregnant, to protect me from the daily ideas and queries.

She has a point in a way. When we have kids early enough, we are able to see them well through childhood and settled into life, before we retire and sources of income start dwindling. Ideally, they should be sorted in life and responsible for themselves at the very least by then.

Its also probably easier on the body not to wait too long to have the first baby. It makes getting back into professions easier if you're still full of energy and young, when you're done with the pregnancy and want to continue your professional life......

I wonder how I'm going to be able to do this. I'm very nervous about what is actually going to happen. For a minute I had terrible visions of something going wrong (though there is no reason why it should). Then I thought that maybe, I may not even conceive and will still be planning a pregnancy with the complete inside info and upto date knowledge like a native of the field of pregnancy planning even a year later.

I think I'm rambling. I'd better stop for a bit.