Got Lemonade?

I'm tired. I want to just shut down, but I can't. I am running on empty and the stress has me feeling like I'm on the brink of plunging into the .....abyss.

My life sucks. I try to look at the brighter side and make the most of the lemons I have...because of one bad decision I made. My house is FULL of lemonade. I always try to look at the brighter side, but there aren't any sides left to look at.

I'm tired and unhappy. I need to find the peace that surpasses all understanding.

I'm tired of being strong, cheerful and optimistic.
I'm tired of defending my life, my kids & my autistic son
I'm tired of my life being so complicated, difficult and hectic.

I'm tired and there is no relief, no rest, no refuge in sight.

My sister told me sooner or later, caring for 7 kids and holding it down by myslef was going to catch up with me.
It has and all I can say is:
I'm tired.