I'm feeling absolutely fine today. No uneasiness whatsoever :)

Slight tenderness in breasts and they look slightly bigger, but I'm not reading too much into it. It could be any of many things. I've been eating like a pig, so I might have put on some weight and am seeing it only where I'd like to find it, or simply because my periods are approaching, or it could also be that I AM pregnant.

The world is rocking!

I was reading about the complexities of the diet pregnant women should follow, and much of it goes above my head. I'm going to let that be until I actually turn out to be pregnant and the doctor says I need a change of food or something.

If I actually am pregnant, I think implantation has already happened, which means the beloved little critter is already feeding on my blood. Which is good.

If I'm not, its a valuable leson learnt in not letting wishfful thinking divert me so much that I read stuff that is not really there.

I was feeling very tempted to buy a pregnancy test, but I feel that it might be too early. I might as well wait for the date for my periods to come and see what happens. Right now, a negative could be anything a negative in reality or a negative waiting to turn positive. Would be too bad if I allowed myself to think I'm not pregnant and got tempted to sneak in a smoke or something (unlikely).

But, I'm waiting to test. I'll do it on the 19th if my periods don't happen on the 18th. I'm usually pretty regular, so that one day frame should be good enough reason to test.

I have also been worrying about the kind of supplements I should be taking. I'm not too much into pills, preferring my diet to cover all I need, and it hasn't been difficult so far (not that I'd know). I'm feeling uneasy about taking folic acid and iron and what not, particularly when I've done well without artificial additions to my diet all this time.

I need to figure out a doctor. Every place I visit insists that a doctor should have been consulted in the planning of the pregnancy itself, but I was kind of embarrassed to walk into a doctor's office saying that I want to get pregnant and need guidance (or whatever is the least embarrassing way of putting it). I guess it would have been easier if I had a family doctor, but I don't. Never needed one. I walk into any doctor's office for tetanus shots, which is pretty much what I use them for.

So....... wondering about the doctor part of it. I guess it might be easier to walk in saying that I'm pregnant and want to get enrolled for what ever regular stuff is supposed to happen (there seems to be a lot of it)

Meanwhile, stay tuned for what else I dig up and the test on the 19th - 5 days to go.