Blonde as derogatory

Ill be a blonde in its derogatory form tonight, though I seriously just dyed my hair in almost dark brown black, without the streaks i feel so 'emo-chick' i feel dark. At least I dont have to live up daily to how I used to look, I used to look and smile like I belong to Peppy and Co., you smile bigger when you try to mask contentions inside your head. I want to get married at this early age just like my heroes such as Britney and Christina... haha got ya! its not like i have anyone to marry me. LOL. but I want to go thru just for the sake of the 'rush', well I dont even have anyone who is madly in love with me or vice versa, naaaah, its just a wild idea that pops inside my head every now and then, is that a sickness that every girl goes thru? I mean by borderline peeps like me, that only a few are brave enough and manage to indulge with the idea? I am battling with my thoughts again, is the opposing force what you call conscience? reason? or just a mini me waiting to come out, do i have tendencies to have multiple personalities just like Robbie?, or just plain dual shit? I know my artists! hehe. Speaking of Robbie, When he spoke about having multiple personalities and how most people has it, I personally think he just did not get the point that he is talented in a way that he sees things from different angles in a more emphasized way and as human beings with individual complex emotions, he didnt appreciate the fact that he's able to amplify full volume most of his emotions, moods and characters that is why he is lost in his head surrounded by webs of confusion brought by environmental and societal standards, drugs, booze, origin and destination and a whole lot more. This is just my analysis, his psychoterapist might disagree, I on the other hand is just a floater, an expectator who has her own life and issues to go thru too. I just feel sometimes that I relate to him, that He is just like me, well I feel that way, hehe (at least I relate with a musical artist!. lol, or i try to merge the facts). Well guys, this is me being blonde, always a mixture of the long spectrum of thoughts, from dumb to smart.