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I'm dealing with the death of my father. He committed suicide, or tried to, on August 3rd. He shot himself in the mouth, on the front porch of his home, with my mom and my brother in the kitchen. There was an argument....God didn't love him, and he was going to hell. Then all at once it happened. He didn't die right away. I had to take my mother into the emergency room, after being kept at the security desk for 20 minutes, until social services and the doctor, could come down and speak with us about his condition. He blew the right side of his brain to smitherines, lost his right eye, was paralyzed on the left side of his body, and had little brain function. I had to literally keep my mother from climbing on top of his bloody mess of a face, to keep her from kissing him. Mind you, once you decide to let them go on their own, they don't bandage anything, just try to clean them up best they can. He was on life support until the following morning. He was breathing over the ventilator when we took him off. He continued to breath on his own for about 13 hours, and then passed. That was when he succeeded his task.

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Here's the thing, if you are paid to play football, and you have to fight pitbulls for fun, your an ass. I cannot believe that this guy is actually doing this for fun. You have millions of dollars, you can not find anything more exciting???

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I have! Actually, I've been hit by 2 in the past three days!! A derecho is when the damaging winds race ahead of the heavy rainfall along a gust front of a thunderstorm, or a cluster of thunderstorms. As you may have heard or read, the St. Louis Area was hit hard Wednesday evening by the first round. It was so strange to see a storm of this magnitude, and the direction it was coming, allowed us to acutally sit on our front porch and watch the whole thing.

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A long time friend of mine came to me today, asking me about a house I used to live in. It was strange.

We had a conversation the other day, about my living on a road that he was taking home as a short cut. He and his wife used to live in the city, but they have moved, about 25mi away from here. He comes into the city to visit, and also work for my husband, a few days a week. He usually leaves around rush hour??? I dont know why, and he has to get off the highway at a different exit, and take a few back roads, to get to the area that he lives in, to avoid all of the traffic.

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It's summertime! Oh, how I love this season! The sunshine is warm on your skin, the kids are out of school, the hoses are running, the pools are full, and there is sunscreen EVERYWHERE!

I haven't wrote in my blog since before my birthday, and I just found that I have a little summertime downtime, so I thought I would visit and write a few words. This time of year is truly a great time for families and friends.

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That's right, it's almost my birthday, and I've lost 10 lbs! Yep, I'll be 29 AGAIN! I haven't been writing, I get too caught up in it with not enough reads, drives me crazy. Dunno why, but can't be healthy. I have always wanted to be able to write daily, but comes out I'm pretty normal and boring. Or I was anyway! I have really come to that realization and don't want to bore you any more than I have too.

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Howdy!!
Day three of trying not to look pregnant to my neighbor, and I'm feeling really good. As I stated in a previous post, I'm not going to even try to get up early this week. Why should I when I don't have to until next week when the kids go back to school. SO, on that note.....yesterday I did my errands, stopped at the office to tie up some loose ends, and came home in time to get ready and head off to baseball practice. My hubby is the coach, so there is some preparation involved. Getting the equipment in the truck. Loading the cooler, making sure we have the first aid kit. After practice, we came home and I made some late dinner tacos. Not the best thing to eat at 8pm, but considering I only had an egg & an apple for lunch, I was starvin marvin!! Got up this morning and did my new workout regimne, DANCING! I boogie for a 1/2 hour, work up an incredible sweat, and have so much fun. And I dance like there is no one watching, cuz there isn't! HE HE!! I love it! And I can really feel it too! I'm sore in every muscle of my body. So I would suggest to anyone that hates a boring workout video to try this. Turn on the music, feel the beat, close your eyes and pretend your at the club. That half hour will fly by so fast, I think I even went an extra 5 today, just because I liked the song that was playing. I don't see the results yet, geeze it's only day 3, but I'll tell ya this much - I CAN FEEL IT!!!

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I'm on the road to not looking pregnant!!! Yesterday I had a little bit of a hard time getting out of bed, but it's spring break, I'm not gonna fret. I got alot of work done yesterday, the boys were very good for me! For lunch I had a really good salad (I made it myself, thank you!) Dinner was ravioli, just a few bites for me. And the late night snack was a bran muffin w/apricots. It started to storm, the little one couldn't sleep, and we were up making muffins at midnight! I guess it's better than hitting the Easter basket!!!

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Love this gameshow! I'm sure you've seen it, but to sit there on the edge of your seat is truly like your gonna win the money yourself! Tonite's episode was completely cool! Bryan was down to 6 cases left, including #11, of which was the case he chose. The DEAL is 160,000 and he decides to ask his girlfriend, Keshia, to marry him. This guy is so handsome, and she's so cute, very good for the ratings, that's all I have to say.

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Good morning all!
I thought that I would start these entries off first thing in the morning, and look at what time it is!!! Not a good start of a new venture. But I am using all honesty here, so bare with me! I woke up at approx. 7am, but stayed in bed. My hubby left at 8:15, and I stayed in bed. I got up at about 9am, not a good start. But it is spring break and the kids are sleeping in this week. So, on that note, next week should prove to be a little better on starting the day earlier. (I've already started knocking down some of my goals ;-) No breakfast, that's bad. I'm planning on a salad when I get back from the office, walking the dog, and doing my silly dance/exercise moves later this afternoon. I really enjoyed doing that as opposed to going along with a work out video. After watching hours of the turbo jam infomercial, I have some of the helpful ab moves down pat. And you'd be surprised how you start feeling the burn while your dancing your butt off. The 1/2 hour flew by last night, and I think this may be my ticket to not looking pregnant anymore. Ugh, I still just can't believe that!

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Oh....what day are we on? Spring Break started last Thursday and we are only going on "what are we gonna do?" Tuesday! My child is wearing me out! Thus far we have shopped, went to lunch, went to dinner, went to a party a friend's house, an Easter Egg Hunt, Smackdown, and he wants to know what we will be doing tomorrow. He's already bored and the day hasn't even begun. I'm supposed to be getting some serious work done this week and my boss in is Mexico.

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Well, it's finally happend. All those glances in the mirror. That shirt that wasn't this tight last week. The never ending bulge that rims my jeans and shows through my t-shirt. I knew I was getting a little chunky ;-O, but pregnant! Wow! And go figure it comes from the guy who lives a few houses away, the guy that I dated when I was in high school, the guy that I lost my virginity to, and the guy that needs help getting off crack! But I guess that the truth comes to you in any format. I feel like I should ask him why he's so skinny. Why does he do drugs? Would that help? Make me feel a little better? Maybe, but the truth is that he has nothing to do with my fatness! I have done this damage to myself. And I've tried everything. Dieting, exercise, but my biggest problem of all is consistency. I'm a quitter. I can go for a while, but then as soon as I start to see even the slightest result, bam, straight back to the chips. Skip that workout, you lost 2 lbs last week. Before you know it, I've stopped everything, and I'm back to watching tv in my room, snacking before bed! Oh, make it stop! I don't want to look like this AGAIN this summer. I want to be able to feel comfortable in my shorts. I WANT TO WEAR A SWIMSUIT, NOT SHORTS AND A TANK TOP!!! And the saddest part is that we're not talking about 50lbs overweight. We are talking 15lbs overweight, and I can hear you now....ohhh poor thing! Get over it! And I should, but I carry 15lbs like it's 50 with my height. I'm only 4'11". That makes for one very stout and chunky chic! But pregnant?! It's worse that I expected. Maybe I'm up to 20lbs over by now, who knows, I threw away the scale a year ago. It's so sad. I preach to everyone and I can't even follow my own advice when it comes to my appearance. I'm very annoyed with myself and this is going to be the beginning of winning over the pounds. I am goin public! I am going to write a daily entry on what I ate, when I exercised, and any of those nasty pounds that I can sweat off of myself. Maybe I will hold myself a little more accountable. Maybe I'll write white lies about the 3 pieces of candy that I stole out of the easter basket in the other room. I don't know, but I guess we'll find out.

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I'm sorry to say that after losing my bloginity here at writingup, I'm leaving.

It's sad, but I don't see any other way of dealing with it. I didn't even know what a blog was when I found this site. The people that I knew here are gone, strangers walk the face of the screen. I'm scared to leave my blog! Rumors of cheating on me, as if being caught with your pants around your ankles, leaving all that information out there for everyone to see. What were you thinking? I'm really hurt, how could you be so cruel? Don't you care about my feelings? I am taking my AdSense account somewhere else.

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My mother-law-has left us the house. The home that my husband has grown up in. It is horrible need of improvement. I have lived here for 15 years, only to watch it get worse. The mortage has been paid for years. We don't have a home loan, and we do have a full line of credit. So why shouldn't we refinance the home or take out a home equity line of credit? We would have to consolidate some of our debt problems, even pay them off with some of the loan.

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I'm going to make this short & sweet. I probably sound like a broken record, but what the hell! I have huge problems when it comes to adding links (I guess) to my blog. Is there a template somewhere that I'm not finding. I would like to use my feedburner banner, my technorati thing, and just plain old links to other blogs, etc. I've tried to add things to my comment box, is that where I should add things? Sometimes I get the blank page that says I have suspicious data??? Am I really this bad? I just get so aggravated sometimes, and would really like to get over the hump.

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