Just when I think I can't possibly take anymore I get this renewed strength that pushes me on through another day. Blessings and reassurance are the reasons I'm still able to function every day. So much has happened this year already. My nerves have seemed to be pushed to the limit over and over again. As I get to that point where i just want to run and hide something always happens to reassure me and bless me with a new outlook on life. Although I may go a day or two in a complete panic, feeling like the world is going to end, it always works out.

My blessings and reassurance came today once again as I felt I was on the verge of yet another mental break down. I had to do another test to hopefully come to a conclusion on my long awaited diagnosis of what is possibly some kind of nerve problem. This time the test was an EMG. They shocked me and put needle in my arms several times. It wasn't as painful as it sounds, but it wasn't pleasant either. The person who did the shocking part of the test was so nice. He took the time to explain everything that was going to happen and how it was going to feel. I had no worries going into the test. My doctor did the needle part of the test and he also put me at ease. Not once during the test was I scared and this is what I had been in a panic about. Today my blessing and reassurance came in the form of my doctor and his staff. I was so worried and they never let me down nor did they give me any reason to be scared. It was actually kind of fun. What a blessing!

I always tell myself not to worry because I know it will work out, but I guess it's just human nature to worry. Although I may still worry I will never under estimate the value of the blessings and reassurance that I recieve in so many ways. It is because of this that I am who I am. It is because of this that I am alive.