I say:

its so hard.
its not fair.
but God has let it happen.
Why, i wonder?
Preparation?
it seems too long.
i miss her.
she misses me.
I love her.
She loves me.
Does anyone really know what its like?
everyday is one more without her.
we long for each others company,
and can not find it in others.
What purpose is there in all of this waiting, i wonder?

but He says:

I am in control.
Trust Me.
Delight in Me.
You will get through this.
Learn to depend on Me totally.
You are my earthen vessel.
I will use you for things you have not even imagined.
Stand firm and I will be with you always.

I say:

It isnt easy but,
Father not my will but yours be done.