She had gotten in touch with our mutual friend, and I asked about her. But this is not the email I was expecting. This woman helped me at a time when I thought my marriage was completely doomed. She was there for me when my dad died. I had planned to take a trip to Canada with her to visit that mutual friend of ours, and my dad died just a few days before. We rode together from her house to Toronto, and the whole way and the whole time there, she was comforting me. She has helped me in so many ways, and this is just so devastating to hear. And then, on top of all the other bad stuff that's happened to her, it makes me angry.

She wrote that she met the thing that will kill her. I've always thought that's such a cruel thing. I mean, I understand that everyone dies. I understand that I'm not exempt from that. The thought of death doesn't scare me. But I've always hoped that when it's my time, it's sudden and unexpected, or it's at the end of a long life, and I just go to sleep. But to be told that you will live between 3 months and three years, so it's time to get your shit in order- that's the ultimate cruelty. You will never accomplish everything you've wanted to do, and you know exactly how long you have to accomplish it. I don't know. I think it's better if Death sneaks up on you and says, "Hey, it's time to go now" rather than lurking within sight, taunting you with the knowledge of what will happen.

Thanks for the positive energy for me. I'm crying right now, so I guess I do need it. lol I'm sad and angry and frustrated, and trying to overcompensate by laughing at funny pictures... I'm all over the place.

Yeah, my friend discovered it through headaches. They removed two tumors, one an inch, the other a half inch. They said they got everything that was visible and put some chemo disks in. She's also being treated by chemo or radiation, and she's tolerating it very well. No hair loss, no nausea. I mean really, as far as the way she sounds, it's about the best it could be going.

But it is malignant. It will return. :( Worst case, three months. Best case, indefinite.

I'm still trying to get in touch with her. All the info I have now is passed to me through our mutual friend. The first thing my husband did when I told him was to ask if I wanted her to come here, or if I wanted to go there. I told him we're going to start with email and see where it goes from there. It's just, this is the worst possible way to reconnect with an old friend.

I really cannot imagine what it's like to reconnect under these circumstances. But, you're right. Once you get in contact with her, you'll figure out pretty quickly what the best course of action will be.

I'm glad she's doing so well with everything. In my grandmothers case, she was diagnosed because of the headaches, also. But, after she died they discovered that she was literally riddled with cancer throughout her entire body. So, even if she'd gotten treatment sooner for the brain tumor, it wouldn't have helped. Yet another reason why it's so important to get to the doctor when you feel badly and it won't go away.

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I'm very sorry to hear that, Hutt. I will keep him in my thoughts.

I'll keep him in my prayers, too!

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