Acatalepsy

Lost in acatalepsy am I
My endeavors to expunge thoughts of you
Leave me chagrined
Am I so frail
That a mere breath of exhalation from your lips
Would topple my fortress of morals
Established throughout my lifetime?
I have become as well acquainted with you
As with the light of day
Yet I know you like
A pagan knows God
My familiarity with you derives
From the myriad of dreams of you
Which play in my head
From the break of light
To the abatement of its emanation
Time wanes, things change
Yet one constant
Is your portrait in my mind
Your eyes, your lips, your nose, your skin
Your words and voice resonate in my soul
This resonance drowns out
All other thoughts in my head
Yet to another do you belong
And to covet you
Is a sin against God
Why has fate woven such a cruel puzzle?
Thus I sit idly on the sidelines
Sinning in my heart
Coveting she who belongs to another
Testing my patience and waiting for the day
That your locks will be broken
And your chains will be broken
My heart was once broken
I cannot take another
Heartbreak or healing?
Which will you bring?
Perhaps neither
Perhaps like the wind
You'll be a transitory guest
Perhaps the day will come
When our separate ways we'll go
Perhaps to you I shall remain
Forever inconspicuous
Perhaps this is my fate
Perhaps I was made to suffer
Perhaps it was never meant to be
Time will only tell ...